Fight For It

An Aspiring Martial Artist with Postural Orthostatic Tachy…card…Ugh. I need to go lie down.


In March of 2012, my life fell apart. I was a grad student in computer science by day, and an aspiring martial artist in the evenings. I had been suffering from fatigue and very poor exercise recovery for years. After a work out I would often find myself to weak to stay awake the next day and would pass out for several hours. Once after a heavy work out of Muay Thai, Kali, and Jiu Jitsu, I woke up in a cold bath tub. I had gone to take a bath, and lost consciousness part way through. The next week, I became fatigued, and fell during a work out, breaking my arm.

I decided to train Tai Chi until I recovered. I ended up sticking with my new instructor and training Kung Fu with him. This lasted for about 8 months until March 2012. My fatigue began to intensify. I had to sit out after an hour of working out. Then a half hour. Then one day I made it 15 minutes. I sat on the floor and lost my ability to move or speak. Eventually my body started convulsing and I was driven to the ER.

6 months later, after dropping out school, moving back in with my mom, and spending most of my time in bed, sick, terrified, and sometimes too weak to care for myself beyond getting to the bathroom and back, I got a likely diagnosis of Postural Orthostatic Tachycardia Syndrome (POTS).

Kung Fu has a philosophy of “health first, fighting second.” My Sifu (Kung Fu teacher) has committed to working with me in finding ways to regain my strength and retrain my nervous system to respond appropriately to an upright posture. This blog is the ongoing story of my illness and recovery.

Please feel free to connect with me through the comments section or email at


17 thoughts on “About

  1. magicbera on said:

    stop changing your URL. It keeps breaking my favorites and makes it hard for me to follow!

    • This is my first blog and it took me a while to get the hang of it. This is the last change. Rest assured, I am a wordpresser for sure. 🙂

  2. i don’t find this to be an illness, i read you other posts too.

    you smart and take advantage of you special thinking and make good use of it.

    • Thanks iamsofree. The illness part is actually the group of symptoms I’ve been having (losing speech, difficulty walking and controlling my body etc.) The doctors told me I was crazy, but it’s starting to look like I really am sick. Unfortunately my blog makes less sense if you just jump into the most recent post. There is a link to the my first post on the upper-right sidebar of my blog. That one should give you some idea. Thanks for the comment!

      • i am so sorry to hear this, i wish i had better words to say to you.

        the best advice that i can ever give you is never give-in in to anything ever…….

        look in the mirror and honestly self study without shame. accept where you have failed your self and mostly accept where you have played victim in to this , when you know the truth use it to help your self and become even better everyday with or without the illness. you will have self victory soon….

  3. hey, please if you don’t mind, kindly follow my blog too, i want to keep reading this….

  4. Thanks so much for stopping by my blog

  5. Hi Moxyjen! I didn’t know where to put this so I’m just typing it in your about me page :p Have you heard of Zen Habits? Its a great blog that I wanted to share with you!

  6. ajaytao2010 on said:

    Thanks Moxyjen for visiting my blog, I read about you interesting strength healing & martial arts. I feel you r on the right track one day u will be able to heal your own ‘ self ‘

  7. Thank you for stoping by my blog.
    I hope you find a way through, I’m so pleased that your Martial Arts training can be of some help to you.
    I hope to have a good read through your blog in the coming days.
    Stay strong,

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  11. My friend,
    I have nominated you for the “Wonderful Team Member Readership Award”, I am so grateful for all the comments and likes that you have contributed over the last few months, I appreciate them all.
    Thank you so much,

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